It starts like this;
“If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are half way through. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness.”
Wait a minute!!!!!! This would be nice if it were true because then that would mean that there is some kind of finality to this whole AA recovery thing but there ISN’T because it is a program for LIFE! So how the Hell
do you ever get halfway through?
Ok, so if that’s not what they mean, maybe they’re talking about when you get halfway through the Steps, so let’s see how that fits. Hmmm, declaring yourself as powerless, surrendering your will, confessing your sins
and getting ready to pray for a miracle pretty much brings you to the halfway point.
I’m sorry but I don’t see how you can find any sense of freedom when you have abdicated your very own essence and will. Happiness? Maybe if the challenges of thinking for yourself is too much then being indoctrinated into a groupthink cult that will tell you how to run your life is a good idea. I think not!
Lets continue with these empty promises;
“We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experiences can benefit others.”
What a bunch of crap! Steps 4 and 5 are all about “regretting” your sinful past and self- flagellation over your “character defects”. It’s true, they will NEVER let you shut the door on it and you will be reminded on a
daily basis about how “diseased” you are and how much destruction you have caused! Other than misery loving company, I don’t see how any of this is even remotely helpful!!!!!
“That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change.”
More nonsense! Powerlessness=uselessness and endlessly rehashing your shitty past only encourages self-pity. What’s wrong with self-seeking? We come to overcome our dependencies and learn how to make better decisions and become more assertive. The 12 Step process hinders all of that. Our “attitude and outlook” become one of dependency on “the rooms”……Not good.
“Fear of people and economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us.”
Are you kidding me? Sponsors are all too quick to tell you that your job, family and anything else NORMAL in your life are to take a back seatto “the program”.
The steps have ZERO to do with following your intuition or using your brain in any capacity for that matter.
"We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves”
Well there you have it. Powerlessness, surrender and faith healing in one sentence.
Ok now comes the creepiest part of this whole diatribe when the speaker says;
“Are these extravagant promises?” and then the whole AA congregation in unison respond loudly and
“We think not” Holy Crap! The first time I witnessed this cult like behavior I almost fell out of my chair. I thought I was going to get sick! Then finally the thing closes with;
“They are being fulfilled among us-sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will almost always materialize if we work for them.”
Promises? I’d say more like lies. If you “work” the steps, they will do NOTHING in terms of helping you overcome your alcohol dependency (See Part 1). Quickly, slowly? How about never! There is NO EXIT PLAN to this wackadoodle “program”.
Yup, if you want to change the outcome of our existence, then you have to work at it but do yourself a favor, ignore these “Promises” because all they are going to give you is a brain and soul lobotomy.
Happy Sunday and Peace out,