Their stupid observation; "As I understand it, both you and Rolf attended AA. I think you went for many years and Rolf claims to have been to hundreds of meetings. So neither of you exactly went it alone did you? You both took to heart AA's complete abstinence message. AA influenced you much more than your egos are willing to admit."
And my response;
The few hu...ndred meetings I went to were spread out over a few years and several coerced stints.
The ONLY reason I ever went was to keep relative peace with my Ex-wife and because I knew of no other "alternatives".
AA NEVER worked even a little bit for me. I'm afraid "my best thinking" made me realize it was a dogmatic pseudo religious cult from
the very first meeting I ever attended. On one occasion I somehow lasted close to a year but as you people call it, I was "white knuckling"
it the entire time because I absolutely HATED it and of course nothing in those meetings actually addressed ANYTHING relevant to
an alcohol dependency issue. Nothing.
I was never able to maintain any "time" because AA actually made me more miserable than I already was.
How is it that I was only able to maintain healthy living until long after I stopped abusing myself in these mental abuse meetings?
It wasn't until I consciously REJECTED AA's messages of powerlessness and lifetime disease LIES that I was able to reassert my ability
to effect positive changes in my life and delve into the reasons for my discontent and develop healthier views of the world and methods
in which to lead a contented and even happy life.
Drinking dependently was a response to those poor life skills and accompanying stress/anxiety/depression. I was quite aware that
the drinking was only a poor self-medicating/numbing response long before I ever stepped into one of those dreaded basements.
In fact, AA only delayed the eventual process of changing my mindset."