are and where they’re heading. With that in mind, this week will mark the conclusion of the 3rd year of my re-birth as a sober, evolving human that lives his life in the present with intent.
The question has been posed to me that; “now that you’ve been alcohol free for so long, learned much about what made you abuse it for so long, developed sound life skills, etc….; don’t you think it would be safe to return to a life of drinking in moderation like everybody else?”
The answer to that question for me is a definite “I don’t know!” I know that it is totally possible for a lot of people and I’ve read many accounts of folks who have done just that. I don’t know any of them personally
so I don’t know to what extent their drinking overwhelmed their lives; if the first thing they did when they woke up was to gulp down a half pint of vodka or whatever. But I have heard of people doing so, so I think that for some, returning to a life of social drinking can be part of their future.
Now for me personally, I don’t think it’s in the cards and I’ll tell you why I don’t plan on ever finding out. First of all, the last three years of my life have without question been the best period of my entire life.
Even if there was only a 1% chance of returning to my old drinking pattern, why the Hell should I risk it. I’m happy without it and with my luck that would be the one time that I win the damned lottery (the 1% chance coming in).
There are lots of reasons that I can tell myself to believe that I’ve matured out of any possibility of ever falling back to that destructive life. About a decade ago I “roughed” it through just shy of 1 year of sober living. I hate using AA slogans but in this case it was kind of true. I was living as what they call a “dry drunk”…not drinking but still extremely miserable. Why? Because I hadn’t addressed any of my underlying issues whatsoever. Given that fact, my eventual fall back was kind of inevitable. This time, however, the opposite is true; I’m fulfilled, joyous, optimistic towards the future, etc…. so why not give the old social drinking thing a try?
But the old saying “to thy own self be true” is something to look at. I don’t do moderation of anything well. If I sprain my ankle and get a vile of Vicodin, I can guarantee you that I will NOT take it as prescribed and that I will be through it before I’m supposed to be. In the morning, I don’t drink a cup of coffee, I drink a pot. That’s just how I’m wired.
So as to whether or not to test the waters of returning to normal social drinking, I can only say; think long and hard if it’s worth the risk. Buyer beware :->