Here are my final thoughts on my free will rambling and
how it relates to addiction/alcoholism.
This is totally my take on
things and by no means do I profess to say that I know if it's right or wrong.
As Socrates supposedly once said; "I know that I don't really know anything". I
do feel, however, that intuition and an inner voice speaks to all of us and this
is what mine leads me to believe.
What is the purpose of life? On an
individual level, I believe that our purpose is to evolve towards
self-enlightenment. Because we are social creatures by nature, a big part of
that evolution naturally centers around how we interact with one another. I also
believe that we are meant to be kind, compassionate, empathetic, altruistic and
giving to those around us. To do so sometimes goes against our ego driven
desires to take care of "me" above all else. The truly enlightened soul has the
ability to both take care of one's own needs while at the same time contributing
to the betterment of mankind.
Whether or not you believe in old biblical
stories or not, the story of Adam metaphorially teaches a truism of our world.
When he ate the forbidden fruit, he exercised "free will". Obviously, God or the
universe intended for this to happen (I mean God or the universe you would
assume would have the power to nip that in the bud if they so desired, right?)
Anyway, the fact is that the universe didn't nip it in the bud and the ability
to make choices for "good or evil" is ours for the making. Why would the
universe allow this?
There was an interesting article in the "faith"
section of Saturday's NY Newsday (4/13/13) titled "Does evil have a place in the
world?" In it Rabbi Arthur Schwartz observes; "In a perfect world where the only
option we had was to do good, we would not grow, would not develop, because we
had nothing to wrestle against. How would we develop our choice of good and evil
if we never had to make that choice?"
What does this all have to do with
alcoholism or addiction? When you are in a self-absorbed addictive state, you
are obviously causing yourself great harm. When you are in such a state your
personal evolution comes to a grinding halt. But even sadder is the pain and
suffering that you cause to those around you. Unless you live by yourself in a
cave, your addiction is causing hardships in some form to people around you.
Even if you aren't hurting anybody else (which is highly unlikely), you still
aren't fulfilling your true purpose on Earth and deep down you KNOW it.
That's where all of the excuses for addiction come in handy. It keeps
you from having to look yourself in the mirror and admit that YOU are causing
harm to both yourself and your loved ones and therefore not in harmony with your
true purpose. If you are honest and see that it was your CHOICE, then you can no
longer pretend it happened because you were "powerless" or you "were born that
way". Addiction is EVIL and if you want to have peace in your life, then you
have to DECIDE it has no place in your being.